1st August 2009, Saturday

Its seemed like yesterday i welcome the new year,2009.
Now its already August..
Eight months into the new year.

In these months,
I have seen how friendships are made;
And how friendships break.
How i fell in & out of love;
How the world changes;
How people who i love passed on.

Everyday of my life is a history.
The good times,
The bad times.
Sometimes it made me feel happy,
At times,Sad.

Its funny sometimes how we dream of something;
Only to find it crushed at the end.
Hopes,dreams all shattered.
Sometimes i wonder if there really is such thing as a happy ending?

People around me,
Getting married,
Getting engaged,
Going abroad,
Getting pregnant,
Continuing studies,
Meeting the love of their life.

I found myself a wonderful job,
Which is full of interesting people
From all walks of life.
I found my wonderful love,
And wished why haven't i met him earlier.

But,,,then i stopped & wonder.
What is my achievement?
What did i succeed?

From people point of view,
They envy me.
They feel threaten by me.
But,i don't.

I felt that I am way behind time.
At my age, I am suppose to be married,
Or at least engaged.
But,NO...

I just started a relationship.
A relationship which i wonder if it leads to anything?
I know its only been few months.
Guys don't feel the need to settle down.

Why?
Cause they are not the one getting pregnant!
I read that women who reaches the age of 27;
Will have difficulty of having children.
Then,if we women have difficulty having children;
That gives the husband a reason to get another wife!

I just feel so mad thinking of it.
It made me feel that,
I would end up alone anyways.

Might as well start buying a house by myself,
Get a cat....
No cats,,,very tedious...
A parrot maybe...
And ferret...
Good idea...